Jo's Haven

For the past 3 months I’ve been incognito,I totally lost it and was so immersed in myself,searching for ways on how to be a better person, I thought that I was going to die of boredom but that was really far from it..

I haven’t spoken to some people for this last 3 months not because I felt like it but because it was the best thing for to do,even so it gave me some peace of mind although not completely but it was really good for me that I had just my family..

Okay I think that this is enough for today,I’m mentally tired from this already…

Ciao!!

Aaaaaaaaah!!!!! I really thought about this for days without end and I still haven’t found the right words to put out here,for me it’s a disaster living in Nigeria,like many other who are apparently in my shoes and feeling the pinch,this country feels like a ticking bomb waiting to explode,I can’t even begin to write about my feelings, I’m not even talking about rich/elite Nigerians, I’m sort of sure they have it going well for them ☺️☺️☺️

Every morning I wake up angry like why am I still here??? Wtf am I stressing myself like this?? Why am I not getting it?? Almost 70% of people in this shithole are filled with bad intentions whether directly or indirectly, people are mean to each other and yes we act like everything is so okay and behave like we are happy, we are so used to the harsh condition of living,we are very docile like a snake that just finished it’s dinner and just waiting for the next meal to crawl by, I don’t get mad anymore about what goes on in the news because I get deeply depressed and if I die of depression,my mom will just bury me and mourn but nobody will definitely give a rat’s ass..

Sometimes I think we are just a different breed of people,maybe we were cursed as a people and there’s no way for redemption, who gets comfortable with their chains??? I really don’t understand, maybe I’ll never understand, what do I know??? I’m just here ranting and getting worked up over the foolishness of people, when Nigerians are pushed to the wall,they don’t fight back, they only break the wall and keep moving..

It’s still lockdown,I’ll need to go watch some Korean dramas and movies just to keep my head out of the thick dark clouds hovering over my people, and probably think of way out, I’m done ranting 😂😂😂😂😂😂

Stay safe and healthy 💋💋💋💋💋

Ciao!!!!

So I’m back again, it’s been 6 weeks now and I’m frustrated,irritated,tired and feeling like jelly 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩 I can’t even explain how I’m feeling at the moment, from waking up in the morning to going to bed late at night, it’s frustrating for me..

This lockdown has been really tiring but I’m making the most of it,reading, studying and more movies and music especially K-pop, please don’t say anything!!!! My mom and godmother are two old ladies (widows) who I live with,these women don’t give me the time of day,all they spend their time talking about is traveling, getting more money and more traveling and frustrate me to go and get married 😒😒😒😒😒😒

While my brother on the other hand acts like he’s the prince of the house,I’m so tired of those people in my house but I love them so much because they make my lockdown worth it,from laughing to cracking crazy sexual jokes all thanks to my two moms,I’ve been doing so much though to be happy and positive until yesterday when anybooks (app) decided to go crazy on by monetizing their app, my day was totally ruined because I’ve gotten so many books from that app now I can’t get any for free again 😭😣😣😫😭😫

Now I have two extra apps that I use for getting more books so that’s by the way, oh before I forget! Last weekend was a blast thanks to BTS bangbangcon via YouTube, the concert was so LIT!!!!!!

I really wish that this pandemic would cease and let everyone just return to their usual and normal life but I know that after all this nothing is going to be normal anymore😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 I’m tired though,bye..

Stay safe and healthy

xoxoxo ❤️❤️❤️

So I just realised that my daily routine has been quite in a cycle, something i never noticed but just while i was busy today,I just occurred to me that when I wake up,the first thing is i do is sit on my bed for like 20 to 30 minutes waiting for my brain and body to boot properly,then head straight to the kitchen and drink a 75cl of warm water..

Then go back to my room,brush my mouth and right back to the kitchen to prepare coffee,aigoooo!!!! I’m done, totally done 😂😂😂😂😂

It’s crazy but i love it, really can’t even go into details right now but as far as I’m concerned, I’m loving it!! I think the lockdown thingy has affected me in diverse ways which is a positive phase for me,trust me it’s a good thing but on a serious note,i can’t wait for this pandemic to disappear, it gets frustrating thinking about when it’s going to end..

I pray that affected families find peace,those who have lost loved ones,I get sad thinking about it but right now, it’s better to be strong, positive and safe at home,anyways I need to watch a movie so I’ll be out,much love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Gute Nacht!!!!

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So I’m back but confused at the same time because I’ve been home for three weeks straight even before the corona virus scare,now I’m used to it since there’s a compulsory “sit at home order”.. it feels normal for me since I’m sort of an introvert..

I was pretty bored at first but I adjusted quickly, staying home isn’t something i dread at all, although I’ve limited my communication with friends not because I want to but I’m only doing it to stay sane,my godmother and mom called me a bore 😒😒😒

So I’m using my time to study graphic designing,watch Korean dramas and listen to kpop,yaaas!!! I love kpop and please don’t ask me why, oh suho from EXO just released a mini album and it’s beautiful, can’t even explain the feeling I got from listening to his songs and Jackson Wang’s new songs too ❤️❤️❤️🎶🎶

I’m actually having a really good quiet time with myself, reflecting… it’s quite tough been by yourself but it’s sometimes good for your sanity…aaaaah!!!!! So I’ll go back to listening to my kpop, stay home,stay healthy and stay safe,much love from me to you..ciao!!

돌보다 ❤️❤️❤️❤️